Letter To An Old Friend

Dear friend,

It has been years since we have spoken, and I feel as if I owe you an apology.

When we last spoke, I was a jerk.

I was angry; I was spiteful; I was arrogant; I was proud. I did not value anything (or anyone) but me.

 I was the center of my universe, and only my opinion mattered...

But now... I'm different.

Oh, how I wish you could see who I've become.

I'm a different man than the boy you knew.
I'm a different person now.

At one time, I was pompous, arrogant, full of self...

Now, I am broken and full of nothing... but knowledge of the Grace I have received.

Oh, how I wish you could see me now!

At one time, my thoughts were the MOST IMPORTANT THING IN THE UNIVERSE...

...now, I recognize my frailty.

...now, I recognize my limited perspective.

...now, I recognize my insufficient understanding.

I am so sorry.

Sorry that I ever hurt you.

Sorry that I ever caused you pain.

Sorry that, in my brokenness, I ever caused you to doubt God's goodness.

Sorry that, in my pride, I ever caused you shame.

Please forgive me.

Oh, my friend, if you could see me now...

...You would see a different man from the boy you knew...

...a different humility from the pride you experienced,..

...a different Love from the spite I hurled.

...a different...

...a different...

Me.

I love you.
I have never stopped loving you.
Please,
Please,
Please... find it in your heart...
to...

...forgive me.
(I hope that, one day, we will stand around His throne, and be reconciled.)